Confessions of a Military Spouse

Hi! My husband, daughter, and I are stationed at Fort Campbell, Kentucky. I say that we are all stationed because, well, everytime he moves, Lexi and I accompany him (so we're included). Being here has been different from any of our other duty stations. Previously, we were at USAG - Yongsan, located in the heart of Seoul, South Korea. Prior to there, we were in good ole Fort Rucker, Alabama - detached about an hour north of there in Troy. Anyway, I like to refer to this as our first "real" duty station. Everyone is always so serious here - my guess it's because we're on the highest deployable post in the military. None the less, Fort Campbell is a good place. It's a nice area. We're only an hour out of Nashville - and boy does Nashville have a lot of fun stuff to do?! Being a country girl, I love Music City - so many attractions and SHOPPING!!! If you know me, I love to shop until I drop;  I have to carry a full time job to support my habits. Now, back to the seriousness of Fort Campbell, it's quite hard to get adjusted to it. Just today, I've heard of two more soldiers passing. My best friend, is an FRG point of contact - meaning she had to comfort those soldier's families. I couldn't do it! Today I realized the reality of what my husband signed up for. I'm not gonna lie, I fight back tears daily - just knowing that I could be one of those wives left widowed. Next year, I will have to carry on, trying not to thing about the dangers my husband faces. I don't know how generals' wives have put up with it for so long. Just thinking about the future cares the s#$% out of me. I know I'll have to paint on a happy face for everyone, especially my little Lexi-Lou. None the less, I really don't believe that spouses get due respect for enduring what they have to. Wives that have stuck by their husbands through multiple deployments should be honored. They stay back and hold down the homefront- acting as a single parent for many months, sometimes years at a time. Mind you, these aren't the women writing into Oprah or Ellen asking for freebies. These are the women sitting at the house, carrying on, just waiting on their loves to come back safe and sound!